nature hates virginity

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 04:31:34 GMT

babby boy.

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 06:01:51 GMT

you know what? i don't give a fuck. you're my best friend. i'm still going to try to talk to you every day. i'm still going to send you text messages and IMs and drunkenly call you and say inappropriate things to you. even if you're really busy. even if she disapproves. because I DON'T GIVE A FUCK and I don't ever want to lose you and I don't want to be someone that you talk to occasionally. we've gone months not really talking before and always come back to the same place.

and no i don't think i will ever stop loving you.

and fuck yes that hurts me (so fucking incredibly much right now) but i mean you're probably right it was probably never going to happen anyway and i'm sure(?) that i will find someone amazing and start my own famly and my own life (someday...) but i STILL WANT YOU IN IT.

i can't not have you in it. honestly. that's what hurts the most is that i'm so afraid i'm going to lose you forever. and that you don't give a fuck about it.

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 06:44:57 GMT

i must stink of rejection.

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 02:26:43 GMT

life sucks.

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 17:29:59 GMT

i had a dream last night that i was hanging out with jens stoltenberg.

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 16:02:02 GMT

lastweekend i finished my first lab at 5pm, which was really overwhelming. i decided to meet up with maggie and john at spiderhouse and john pressured (ha) me into drinking his pitcher with him. it started pouring and i was grateful that happened after my arrival. maggie left and we both were starving, so we went to mellow mushroom and had ANOTHER pitcher, played connect four, and ate delicious pizza. we went back to john's house and watched star trek (which he hates, igss) and then full metal alchemist (which i hate, igss). then tom came home from a party at dress's house and i think he was under the impression that john and i were ~hooking up. unfortunately i had jokingly told him that i was "naked on his bed" after the 5 millionth text from him asking where i am and what i was doing. that had weird repercussions because he thought i was serious? and now he keeps saying really inappropriate things to me via text message.

went home and had to get up early for my first saturday lecture, which went swimmingly. we FINALLY finished chapter 1, i feel like the course moves so slowly. i didn't have a hangover because i only had ~4 beers, so this is something i'm going to try to keep up with!

saturday night i got all dressed up and met up with haley at jackalope for her co-worker's bday. too many helldorados were consumed and i ran up a huge tab. they went to elysium and i decided i wanted to meet up with chem kids who had been at spider house but went to this kid al's house (from Fairfax, who i accidentally drunkenly unknowingly burned a bridge with). We got there, went to buy more alcohol but texas stops selling at 12. We came back, eric titus and john went to get beer from their apts and i ended up smoking and geeking out. then we watched way too much food network, read the pchem lab manual introduction which is ALL ABOUT GOD. WELCOME TO TEXAS. THIS IS A PUBLIC UNIVERSITY BUT IGSS THEY DON'T GIVE A SHIT.

then it was 5am and i made john call a cab home for me because i was way too fucked up to talk to a stranger on the phone.
monday i was soooooo sick. i didn't eat a single thing, missed the group meeting i had intended to go to. tuesday i woke up with a sore throat/coughing/sneezing and now this has been going on the whole week.
my wednesday lab went a LOT more smoothly, which was good because i felt like death. yesterday my lab stayed for AN HOUR after lab ended, because they needed to shoot their GC samples. i was so hungry/tired/annoyed when i got out but john was like come drink with us. i didn't have my wallet and he said he would buy me food. i got to crown and they IDed me to get in, it was 6pm, wtf! I didn't have my ID (no wallet) so i went and caught the shuttle home. It was raining so i got pretty wet

then i wanted to order a pizza but after the third time of trying to call papa johns, no dice. i decided to stay in to recuperate for massive partying (40s?) tonight at my apt and downtown. but i still feel like shit this morning.

also on the bus to campus yesterday i got this really bizarre feeling like i'm not going to be around for much longer. i don't know how to describe it, but maybe because i've been thinking a lot about the universe and i feel so infinitesimal and insignificant.

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 02:01:40 GMT

yay another weekend come and gone. friday we went to quality seafood and i got mahi mahi fish tacos with mango salsa and it was FUCKING amazing. i studied for my orgo exam for a bit and put myself to bed early. saturday i went to mimosa brunch c/o mosaic and then studied more. i met this guy nick from okcupid for sushi before the show because we were going to the show together. i tried to make it clear that i'm not interested him but now he keeps messaging me about going to movies and stuff. i guess if i bring a friend he might get the message? i mean he's cool but i feel like we wouldn't be able to hang out as friends because he's 20 and i'm not interested in it otherwise (and have not indicated that i was interested, other than merely responding to his messages)
the chimaira show was awesome. they totally killed it. it was outside at emo's and fucking RIDICULOUSLY SICKLY HOT. i have never been so sweaty in all of my life. and most of it was other people's sweat. hatebreed was amazing too. afterwards nick had to go home to sleep, and i talked to jim from chimaira for a while. john and ginger met me on sixth and red river and apparently they were having a weird night with eachother because they've been attached at the hip and i kind of got in the middle of that which sucks. we wanted to go to shangri la because there was supposed to be a dope night there, but ginger got scared when we saw black people crossing over i-35 and wanted to go back. so then we walked to where the bus comes, i got mad and walked away, we went to the jackelope and had a couple of beers, i took the bus home which was sweet and it leaves every hour until 3:!0. more economical than a cab!

sunday morning i woke up and had a message from a dude that i've been talking to on okcupid (that i actually am interested in) and i met him at a taco stand in the blazing heat on airport & 51st. we got delicious gorditas and he paid for me (which was nice) and then he took me out to this mexican bakery which was SOOOOO fucking cheap and delicious and we were stuffed but got so much and took one bite and then threw it away :(
we joked about shoving our faces in the chocolate pastry and licking it off and i had half a mind to actually do it. then we went to the book store and looked at rare editions. fitzgerald for $500, i fucking wish!!!! then we went to the comic book store and nerded it up WAY more. met john there because we were supposed to go grocery shopping. i found a comic that i read once when i was like 7 years old called AMETHYST and totally bought that shit. then we went to HEB and I came home, didn't want to study and eventually did for a couple of hours, had amazing tv night.

ugh but i have a huge crush on this dude and i hope he calls me.
this is half of the shit i ever write about. the other is being miserable.

this morning i had an exam and probably didn't pass it, like everyone else. it's okay we have two more chances. then i did two of the labs for orgo that i have to write up a cheat sheet on. i also found out that the guy i wanted to do research with is apparently a HUGE passive-agressive asshole and says he expects 60 hrs/week but will make me work 100. which i am NOT WILLING TO DO NO WAY IN HELL.

but now i'm watching TNG on sci fi and it's AMAZING.

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 01:03:36 GMT

ok, well, i've been in texas for a bit now but the first week 1/2 was just setting up furniture and driving around everywhere to buy shit that i "need" for my apartment. i met this girl haley from LJ for lunch on friday which was really nice. then on saturday i took the bus for the first time downtown and went to the "costume night" at the cockpit, a gay bar. i accidentally walked down 6th street by myself and i was so COMPLETELY overwhelmed i found myself really missing oslo. i had to wait in a long line and when i finally got in searched for several minutes (with a $5 jack & coke in hand) until i found haley. it was ridiculously hot so after some dancing we went by the fan and met some dudes and one of them i could have SWORN was gay and we danced and then went to haley's house to swim and he was apparently NOT gay. which made it awkward when he walked me home because i just wanted him to be my gay bff.
today was the first day of graduate school orientation, and i walked to the bus in cherrywood which was not a long walk at all. al day we basically heard about "how to be a successful graduate student" and tomorrow is "introduction to being a teaching assistant" basically really long, drawn out, boring things but it's necessary for us to know.

anyway, i went to the academic center to get my ID made and got in line at like 10 to 5. they closed at 5, even though there were people waiting in line. so now i have to KEEP paying for the bus. fuckers. even though it's only $0.75, the stupid machine doesn't give change so it's always $1 for me. anyway, then i walked around trying to figure out WHERE THE FUCK my bus picked me up and i finally crossed over I-35 and started walking north. then i freaked out because i was SO thirsty and it was 105 degrees and i had already been walking for 45 minutes and i couldn't find the fucking bus. i called my mom but she had no idea how to work google maps so i just yelled at her for like 10 minutes before finding the stop on my own.
i missed my stop and when i realized it, i was way too far away to get off and the stops going the other direction are NOT right across the street, so i stayed on ALL of the way until the end of the line. i was on the bus for an hour and a half.

tomorrow we start and hour earlier. i think i'm supposed to be studying for my introductory exam, reading current journal articles, and i probably should have already communicated with people i want to work with. simply put, i'm ALREADY BEHIND and this shit hasn't even started.
it just took me 3 1/2 hours to get home and i don't want to move anymore.

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 03:31:45 GMT

hello. i live in austin, tx.

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 06:07:56 GMT

things i like:
$20 spent after a night out
things i don't like:
females who think it's okay to undermine their fellow woman walking down a suburban street home by asking "how much for two hours?"
D:

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 18:01:54 GMT

my time in norway is winding down. and while i'm looking forward to going home, i am a bit sad to leave this place.

the money situation is tight, especially after not getting the tax return money and feriepenger i had been expecting. i just have to wait until next year, i guess.

last saturday was charolette's birthday party which we spent in the park. i grilled some burgers, ate way too many ice cream cone cupcakes, we went out to justisen and there were WAYYYY to many people there. we ended up at a park outside of revolver smoking at 5am and these two dudes came onto the basketball court, stripped down to their underwear and started playing BADMINTON. it was a total wtf moment. they started yeling at us for not playing with them and we were like ok yeah i'm not getting naked and playing with you weirdos. i found glowsticks on the ground which was random. but it was a fun time.

i spent a few days in skåne (southern sweden) with eva and her mother this past week. the landscape is quite different from norway, more flat like denmark. we went to grandma & grandpa's and had a swim and i was surrounded by swedish culture! then we took a drive all around southern sweden and saw a bunch of castles which are basically old manors with moats. the next day we went into lund, which is a quaint little town, and saw the domkirke there which has an astronomical clock. we took a tour in the crypt. apparently the cathedral was the center for the first archbishop in northern europe. the days were extremely extremely warm and humid, but it was nice to experience summer weather. the next day we went into malmö and shopped around for a bit, met eva's friends, had an excellent dinner, and went out to a club. i got extremely tired and we took a cab back at like 2:30 and the next morning i woke up with extreme nausea even though my stomach was empty. i ahd to take the bus back and i almost threw up on the local bus to get to the bus stop. thankfully i didn't embarrass myself or eva. the bus ride back was fine, i just took a loooong nap and then watched some movies on my computer. i met up with lab people for my going away party and they gave me a drug synthesis book and a book of norwegian scenery, which was really really nice of them.

apparently the weather is supposed to be crappy until i leave, which makes me sad because i wanted to go swimming at sognsvann since i just got a new suit in sweden. i am spending my last full week in lab trying to get together data and write up a report and still doing a couple of experiments. after that it's my going away party and two days to pack, clean, sort out stuff with the norwegian bureaucracy og si min siste ha det til dette landet.

before i leave i would like to
-get a scone/coffee at UB
-eat a milano kebab (hopefully on saturday!)
-go to some clubs i haven't been to in a while (garage)
-write a letter and send it

also apparently i suck at doing 'last things' because i was too hung over to go to my last iconoclastic, missed the last gymbaloo for the summer, missed the last CS meeting, and didn't go out grilling/swimming on the last nice day for a while (saturday).

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 03:16:43 GMT

tonight i laughed so hard my mascara bled.

today was hany's PhD defense -- my first exposure to such proceedings. he did extremely well with his trial lecture, he was quite calm. during his q&a session for his defense, i wanted to scream out the answers: "ROBINSON ANNULATION, AMINO-ACID/PROLINE/ORGANO CATALYSIS, STEROIDS" but i know if i were under pressure i would have blanked.

the party was nice. i stayed until 11, had some beers, aquavit, ate way too much, and then had some cake on top of that. met charolette, wouter, anne at fru hagen and talked about amazing/ridiculous things.
-charolette needs to see 4 months, 3 weeks, 2 days
-i might get to work backstage as a bartender at hovefestival instead of doing the parking stuff
-i might get to hang out with some bands as a result of the above/knowing awesome people
-i decided to walk charolette home after hanging out at fru hagen after hours and laughing laughing laughing. KJETIL of all people, who we had discussed how it was funny to look back on the winter meeting during the work party, came up to me and charolette. she called him mahmut and i just started cracking up. he was as creepy as ever. and was one of the key points to me saying that when people come up to me in norway and say weird things i am WAY more surprised about it than i am in the states.
-i took a taxi home that i can't afford but tonight was such a plus that it doesn't matter. it's 5am, i'm not tired, i want to drunk/slightlysober dial all of my friends back home
-tomorrow is the beer festival! then party at eva's and iconoclastic. i am so fucking excited.
-sunday or monday i leave for hovefestival. it's supposed to be sunny and beautiful and awesome and el and eddie will be there so if things go terribly wrong i will still have people to hang out with.

life is good. i'm enjoying these last moments in this place.

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 12:08:17 GMT

maybe it's the season but it feels like everyone is at a crossroads or in transition right now.
tons of people graduating, of course. jørgen and amanda moved out today. i said goodbye this morning before i left for lab as they were packing up the van. wished them a good life with many babies. They're getting married and starting their life together. COOKIE IS MARRIED which is still incredibly insane to me. I feel so old right now.

my brother is starting a dual-masters program at Columbia/LSE. Which is amazing, but it also means that i definitely HAVE to have enough $$ to pay my parents back so that my brother can get some support.

friends in tromsø seem like they're all moving -- christina & adrian to bodø, stig & camilla to mo i rana. øivind just got a new house not too long ago, and marlen moved in with him. and now they're going to have a child, he tells me last night. it was so ridiculous to hear that i had to text daniel as gossip girl because i know he would be as surprised/shocked about it at i was. even though i didn't get a response.

alice has moved back home, and mads will be joining her for a semester. fredrik might move to trondheim to go to NTNU depending on the results of his exams.

and then there's me... only partially aware of the fact that i'm moving to texas in two months. that i'm not going to live in norway again (at least for the next five years). trying to enjoy the summer as best as i can. i find myself caught up in moments smiling hoping that it will never end. simple things like sitting in the park on warm days, dancing up a sweat at gymbaloo, taking an evening bike ride home.

this weekend was perfect. everything i wanted and expected. friday night i finally did laundry and cleaned my room. saturday we sat in sofienberg and grilled and drank and played croquet. then people left so i met up with cate, who was MIA for a bit and i ended up talking to random people. although the conversation was completely inapproriate (jeg ser vil ut, tydeligvis...) it was good to be drunk and speaking only norwegian. then cate&i/her screenwriting class hung out until midnight, made it over to ryes, and i walked home around 1:30. Sunday was Cate's housewarming, then more sitting in the park with eva&christian, cate/charolette/therese. we played trivial pursuit until the sun went away, and then i met cate in grünerløkka and we went out to åpenbar aker brygge which is an area i NEVER go in to. Randomly ran into ken from tromsø outsite of the second place we ended up at -- norway is the smallest place ever. sat in bed watching tv all day monday, then went to gymbaloo with eva, and saw star trek with cate, wouter, guro, thomas which was SUCHHHH a good movie. also ran TWICE into a guy i met at a nachspiel. fucking oslo is so small too.

in a need more of these funtimes, i just don't have the financial means for it right now. i might volunteer at hovefestival, which means i would get in for free and only have to pay about 600NOK for the bus ride.

Sun, 24 May 2009 13:37:34 GMT

17. mai came and went.

that friday i went out to hell awaits with wouter and thomas, then a bunch of bars in grünerløkka, spending way more money than i have. saturday i was sick all day with the worst hangover, so i couldn't help prepare for our apartment's breakfast. sunday i woke up early and we started at 9, though i basically swore off alcohol for the morning. the breakfast was good, i hung around the apartment until 2, then i went downtown and the subway was CRAZY full with people leaving karl johan's so it was almost impossible to get off. i had intended to met el and eddie but they never responded to my calls/texts once i was downtown b/c el apparently felt sick and went home. so i walked to kubaparken and met wouter, thomas, guro and we sat in the park and drank and it was sunny and then some people grilled a little bit and then we went to fru hagen and drank more beers and i hung out with cate and her couch surfers and ended up going home quarter to twelve. it was an amazingly fun day actually.

this past week i had two days as eksamensvakt, and i have three days this week. i'm going to make a fair bit of money with it, but after taxes it wont even be enough for 1 months rent :( I wish i could find more odd jobs like this, since the prospect of me finding an actual job is quite slim, especially now that i have decided to go home earlier.

everyone seems to be busy or out of town this weekend, so i didn't go out drinking at all. probably for the better since i went to centra yesterday and spent 400NOK on groceries for a picnic. I sat in the sun in frogner for a couple of hours reading and eating by myself. it was nice, i just wish i could have spent some time with friends.

today is nice too, though not as fully sunny as yesterday and i've just finished cleaning the apartment. my next task is to shower and get ready and then bike somewhere and have another solo picnic.

i've been watching a lot of shitty chick flicks this weekend and i've pretty much realized that we never had a future. and while it would have been nice to have something even just for a little bit, it doesn't matter in the long run.

but i still have decided to write a letter. wave that white flag. i'm not sure what i intend to accomplish with this, but it's something that i want to do.

Sat, 16 May 2009 17:10:32 GMT

i make myself sick drinking trying to forget about you.

Wed, 13 May 2009 09:41:18 GMT

tom waits run was on saturday, which meant staying in friday to prepare. i met up with anne/wouter/thomas at 1:45 in grønland. i took a bysykkel there -- i've been trying to use them as much as possible, they are amazing. we went up to the start of the race, but actually started at the second bar. maya met us at like the 4th place, where we spent a ridiculous amount of time playing foosball and a dude in a yellow shirt took a picture with me and set up a date for gloria flames. my goal was to make it to gloria, and we did, even though we missed the band that was playing tom waits covers because we were SO slow! i had packed a couple of sandwiches and was starving the whole time. we went out to eat at some pizza place and i ate more. then we went to a few more bars on the run, but we definitely skipped a few. we finally made it to fiasco but they had a 150 cover charge so we were like FUCK that. ended up at a place called cacadou, where some supremely drunk guy tried to kiss me and hold my hand and take me home which was really bizarre. i was kind of super drunk so i decided to catch the last subway home.

sunday i watched the spirit and smoked with maya. i love crappy tv shows like my super sweet 16, the spirit was not actually very good.

right now i'm sitting in lab, stressing about money and this project, kind of bored out of my mind and sickened by myself. i watched twilight and ate an entire pint of ben and jerry's last night. i need to go on a diet/start exercising again -- gymbaloo doesn't count.

eva came to gymbaloo on monday and i could tell she had a great time. we ended up destroying all of our good dancing work by eating fries and milkshakes at burger king. but it was a nice 50's girldate. plans for the immediate future include considering meeting yellow shirt guy for some beers on friday, still attempting to find a summer job, and contemplating taking a bike ride or doing the shred later.

this weekend is 17th of may and i hope there will be some sweet champagne breakfast/grill action going on.

Sat, 02 May 2009 04:15:28 GMT

ok. things about tonight.
first of all i was so excited for the most epic concert of my life which ended up being a let down when kaizers played almost all of våre demoner instead of their other albums. i was particuarly disappointed when we chanted for an encore for at least five minutes and they never came back. the concert that i saw in october was better, and this ocncert could have been absolutely amazing if only they had come back and played four more songs. but it was still really good. just not as ridiculous as i had hoped.

i embarrased myself infront of janove and terje and geir and then we went to justisen and FINN was there what the fuck? so i talked to him a bit right before closing. and then everyone was supposed to go to this nachspiel at wouter's but it ended up just being me and then i went home and it took me an hour to drunkenly walk in the complete lightness. i tried to take a fucking bike but apparently it doesn't open until 6:24 which is the lamest shit i've heard in a while.

anyway. i had such weird/high hopes for tonight and nothing happened so i hope tomorrow is better.

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 21:56:47 GMT

so, i've had a bit of a cold since tori left (a cold spot on the mattress. ha!) which means that i stayed in bed all day sunday and monday and have been sleeping in. today was fantastic, even though it's been rainy and overcast and not as warm lately. i slept until 10 or so, chilled in my bed for a while with a strong cup of coffee and went to lab around noon. i spent five hours in lab today, mostly getting acquainted with where shit is in the master student's lab. i have a lot of round bottom flasks to empty/transfer and clean (about 20) but i'm too lazy right now to do it. i managed to answer some ChaCha questions today as well, and sent in a few job applications last night. found out officially that i didn't get the job at burgerking which is a bummer because my interview went so well.

anyway, i came home and suddenly it was time to go to gymbaloo. el and i hopped on the tram and when we got there, there was like no one there because we didn't get the message that it started half an hour late, so we got there ten minutes early. we were standing in the alley and two dudes came up to us and were like do you know where we can get some weed? and we were like, uh, no, sorry just try walking along the river. and then we were like clearly this is some sort of american band. it was gringo starr who had just opened up for trail of the dead the night before at rockefeller. anyway we danced our butts off for the whole hour and it was good. then we left and the dudes in the band yelled across the river HEY COME BACK AND DRINK WITH US. so we walked back while i was eating my banana and had some beers and good conversation with them. then we biked home and i've just finally finished my dinner at 5 to twelve.

tomorrow i'm getting up at 7 to do laundry and flashing at lab. friday is a holiday but i'm going in anyway. it's also KAIZERS so i'm looking forward to it. i have no money :(

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 19:48:01 GMT

apparently i am really good at fucking things up.

and now i have to go to the show. alone. and you'll probably be there, notsoalone. at least there will be friends. only a couple of months left here but i don't really have the income to sustain myself. why didn't burger king even call me back? i feel fooled. i've been playing a huge fool lately. this is not the kind of person i wanted to be, these are not the kinds of situations i am willing to face.

at least i will have another fresh start soon. a fresh start that i have been avoiding seriously thinking about because i've just made the biggest commitment of my life and i don't think i am good enough/smart enough/interested enough/dedicated enough to get through it -- but everyone feels this way sometimes, right?

i just wish things would work out in the day-to-day. i'm not going to stop doing things that are part of who i am, but i'm just really sad that this is why shit isn't working out. because it could have just been fun. i could have just had a good time (and remained completely hung up on this other person), but now it's all fucked up and i'm not shutting any doors but i'm pretty sure i know where it goes from here.

maybe i should change my flight for july...
cheer up alex. it's springtime. sometimes luck changes.

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 10:34:26 GMT

i awoke to a chainsaw this morning before 8am. and now i'm trying to take a nap because the drinking and traveling and shit eating have finally caught up to me and i'm having stomach issues. but the fucking. chainsaw. continues.

tori is leaving tomorrow and this afternoon we're going to sit out in this nice weather and grill. we might go up to sognsvann but i have a feeling we'll end up in frogner park or something. i hope my stomach gets better otherwise i will be a bummer and a buzzkill.

last night we went to gymbaloo with el and my knees are killing me now. we stopped by hell awaits and had 25NOK carlsberg which was an insane price. then we had burger king and i fell asleep on the couch. i'm still insanely tired.

copenhagen was tonsoffun. i spent so much money on food and intangible shit. the only thing i bought was a chococat dress in yellow. but it is adorable and i love it. tori (and eva) bought heaps of shit on high street and in the second hand shops. we went to the round tower which was cool, walked around a bunch, met lucas to give him back his bank card, walked through a really seedy porno/sex shop/prostitute section of downtown, ate 3 buffets in 3 days. the weather was awesome -- warm and sunny and not a cloud in the sky. the ship over was rocky and i was too tipsy and i felt like death, but the ship back was a MUCH better experience. we had a sauna which felt so nice and then went for cheesy cocktails at the cheesy bar with the cheesy band. we got back in the morning and i went to lab. i don't think we're going to finish everything on the fun list. oh well.

i need to find out if my extra ticket for kaizers is going to be used, but i'm too much of a shithead to have the courage to call and pretend like everything is kosher. so, who knows, i might have one for sale.

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 19:48:17 GMT

full days recently. i doubt we're going to cross everything off of the fun list, but we've gotten some shit done.
wednesday i sorted out my tax shit after waiting at the office for 2 1/2 hours. then we saw indian highway at astrup fearnley gallery and got free bags and catalogs when i signed up for the museum club. then we went to gymbaloo at blå which tori was skeptical of but actually was a lot of fun and we got kind of sweaty. then we went out for sushi (even though tori doesn't like sushi! woops my bad.) and met eva for beers at fru hagen.

thursday we went to grünerløkka and had bagel and juice. then we went shopping on markveien and tori bought a dress at trabant. i tried on a few things at a second hand shop but they were too small. my waist is too big :( i need to shred again. then we went to el's to pick up the debit card of this random finnish dude lukas who was crashing there for a couple of days. he lives in copenhagen and we were supposed to pay for some prints for him since he has a daily limit on his visa. he picked up some girl on the busride home and fucked her before he left. it was awkward so tori and i booked it, came home, and watched a movie.

friday was the most ridiculous day of my life. it was sunny and beautiful so we picked up some snacks, met el and eddie, and went to the botanisk hage in tøyen. i fell asleep on the grass in the sun. we climbed a tree and got yelled at. we were walking down my favorite part -- fjellhagen -- when i realized that we had to go to the print shop to pay for lukas' prints! it was after 4 when i realized and we didn't even know where we were supposed to go. it turned into the amazing race and we took the train to carl berners and then the 20 bus towards sagene/torshov. we were trying to find where to get off looking at the map that tori had in her bag from jørgen, and amanda had apparently gone to the same street and there was a post it in the map! it was our clue and actually quite helpful because the ticket checkers then came on and even though mine was already expired i was okay and tori and el pretended to not know that they had to stamp the flexikort tori bought and i pretended like i didn't know them. we got off the bus and started walking fast and ran across the street sort of unnecessarily and then a dog ran in front of us and we reached the address but it was just apartment buildings so then i had to ask a woman for help in norwegian and she showed us where the building was and there was a sign in front that said they moved and i was like OH FUCK. but it didn't matter because they closed at 4 on fridays anyway! it was super stressful. then we went home and bought snacks and got ready for the evening and people didn't come until after 10! then we went to gloria flames which was tons of fun and there were tons of people there. tori, el and el's friend went to fisk og vilt and i promised i would come meet them afterwards. i left with eva's friend irra she met on the bus and called el because we couldn't get into the club and she came out and said that TORI WAS GONE. luckily, el had the number of the person she left with otherwise we would have been fucked. i tried calling him like 5 times before he answered, and finally we ended up going over to his house to pick her up, meanwhile irra peaced out. then tori got a hot dog and we met these people at 7-11 and went to a nachspiel with them. there were tons of people and tons of them were sitting in the kitchen smoking. i asked them to open a window and they looked at me like i was crazy. we finally started the long walk home and ended up getting back at 5:30. we woke up at 10 this morning so tori could do laundry and age a big one with pepperoni. then we finally took a nap and woke up at 5:30 and then cleaned the apartment.

so it's been busy/crazy so far and copenhagen is tomorrow so i'm excited for more fun!

Mon, 13 Apr 2009 21:53:39 GMT

tori is here and although it's been easter and nothing has been open, we've managed to have a bit of fun. saturday she was jetlagged and i was hung over tired so after one vodka and some taco salad we went to bed. we walked for hours on sunday, had an ice cream at aker brygge because the sun was shining and it was 10 degrees, went to the opera at bjørvika, walked through grünerløkka and had a coffee (and found my scarf! at fru hagen) and then came home. we went to her friends' house who live down the street who just moved here from Perth just for kicks, looked at google earth where you can walk down my street, and looked up insults in different languages. german and romanian are the most hilarious "you write down your jokes! you drive the speed limit!"

today we bummed about the house because it was so rainy and miserable. watched lucky number slevin which was pretty good and ate tons of chips and salsa. went for a walk in the rain to vigelands and saw the wrestler. tomorrow i'm going to uni and then i have an interview at burger king egertorget at 1:30 and we're having a scone with eddie and el at 2:30 at united bakeries.

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 08:09:06 GMT

woops. i think i came home and vomited last night. i'm sure jørgen is proud and pleased. went over to cate's and had some wine and rum/coke. i think we both had a little too many of the latter. then we went out to fru hagen, smoked some cigarettes which was probably not a good idea. we tried to get in after taking a smoke break, and the bouncer wouldn't let her in. i was like, she's not any more drunk than i am! and he was like FINE YOU BOTH CAN LEAVE. and i was like SRSLY?! SRSLY?! and then walked out :(

took cate home and i think i tried to cut some rolls for her after getting water and i cut my thumb. i thought it was okay but it was bleeding everywhere. she tried to convince me to stay but i was determined to walk home. i tried to pull my trigger on the way but it didn't happen. i think i lost one of my gloves :( but at least it's getting warm so I don't even need them anymore.

shit i didn't mean to get so fucked up, especially because tori is coming today and i have massive things to do still before her arrival. we were listening to kaizers which is my favorite and then i sent thomas a txt saying "om du hadde vært min man nå, sko me dans en jævel av en tango" woops. and then i called him on my way home so that i could laugh to him in norwegian about my thumb but he didn't answer because he was leaving for sweden at 9am this morning.

but, technically, he gave me free reign to call him at 3am. first he was like "don't call me at 3am drunk!" and i didn't hear him so i asked him what? and then he was like, nevermind, you can call me ;)

we spent friday night together. apparently he thought tori was already here, but when he found out she wasn't he invited me over for a movie. i was at mcdonalds getting a milkshake and asked for a large one which ended up making my stomach hurt. we watched bad porn for hours on his ps3/projector from the internet. then we went to bunnpris in the morning and he bought me a pizza and made bacon and eggs and we hung out all day on my couch watching bad tv and checking digg.

idg why he insists on kissing me on my forehead and my cheek but now the sweetness of it is growing on me.

edit: i just realized that 1) i have no recollection of the walk home other than trying to drunkdial and pulling my trigger 2) i lost MY SCARF :( i hope it's at cate's or at fru hagen. 3) my thumb is really fucked up and I don't have a bandaid.

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 13:22:07 GMT

why can't i say no?

i was walking home and a guy stopped me by saying "excuse me". i thought he was going to ask for directions but he told me he "liked my style" and then started a conversation with me. he's a master student at chemistry in lise-lotte's group. he is missing one of his front teeth. i finally said i had to go meet my friend (eva gets off at 4 and i wanted to get a shred in before that) and he was like oh how can i contact you? and i was like um you can have my email. and he was like can't i get your number? I want to take you out and get to know you better. and i was reluctant but finally gave it to him. even though i told him i was seeing someone right now, he was persistent. i wish i could have just been like 'no'.

i did, however, say that tori is visiting for nearly two weeks and that i would be busy until after then. i put his number in my phone so i know not to answer it. i feel like a super bitch doing this and feel bad for the poor guy but sorry i'm just not into you.

i'm thinking about mega rearranging my room before tori's arrival. i really need to clean and do laundry but i'm going to be in lab weds/thurs/fri to make up a bit for the time i'll miss when tori is here. but i'm also beginning to NOT GIVE A SHIT, even though this is what my permit is based off of. i'm tired of this stupid project and flashing all of the time and nothing ever working right. but if i don't do anything during the day i'll feel like a loser.

i got a message saying i wasn't being considered for the friday's server position. i've just applied to a 25% bartender position at The Shamrock Pub in rødeløkka. Ryes is also hiring, so I might give them my CV.i've worked 5 days as a guide at ChaCha, i've only made $75. If you want to become a guide, i'll send you a referral. it takes some time to make some cash, but if you have time to kill it's pretty okay.

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 02:26:37 GMT

so uh. today i woke up at 10. went into lab at 11 but didn't do anything besides take an NMR and move a couple of pieces of furniture. I'm so unmotivated on this project, but also because I need new materials and they are not to be found... yet.
I stayed for 2 hours and then came home and ate and felt generally useless. Then I fell asleep for a bit, woke up and found out I was accepted as a ChaCha guide. So, I did that for a few hours and then went to the store to get dinner... fjordland again. which i don't have money to spend on but i'm so lazy. Then I spent HOURS answering questions and i think i've only made like $10. FML, seriously.

but i got an answer to call one of the guys about eksamensvakt at one of the high schools in oslo, and figured out that the emails they had put on the other announcements were missing a VITAL part of the address, so maybe i'll have some ~norwegian work~ as well.

haha, thomas called me out on some tilde's yesterday because i texted him "I don't always want to ~sleep over~" and he was like WHAT IS WITH THE WAVY LINES and moved his arms it was hilarious.

ok so tomorrow i think i'm going to go to ikea? to get sheets for tori's "bed" or maybe i can just borrow them from jørgen, but whatever I need something to do.